(R)adium and Potassium(K) overdose kills!

This week has been a week with a lot of mood swings and frustrations leading to mini depressions at times. Things haven't been going the way I wanted them to. I have been getting screwed by lectures continuously. How can they ever expect us (at least me) to sit like robots in class! I can't. I can't do anything to stop my yawns. I don't mind if am called the 'yawning girl' or whatever but screwing my happiness for no mistake of mine is not ok! And am not even allowed to speak out in defense! Injustice! No, it's not class room. I call it a torture room.

The bad sessional papers have been adding to this! They have been coming after a specific time gap during which I go into a mini depression recover only to realize that there's another repeat recycle of the thing that just happened. And am sick of how come so less? / really? Don't lie... from people when I tell them my marks. Y ask when you can't believe? The only good thing I can take from this sessional is that I was honest and dint copy. Not that we weren't allowed to but I dint want to :)

What do I do? I make plans... Study this and complete this today…but nothing works leading to more frustrations... I try to concentrate in class and understand something but everything flies over my head. And then all weird thoughts start coming into my mind…like how am screwing my life, what a loser I am etc...

I want things to get back to normal soon! I want good marks in the next sessional and a good gpa so that I can prove some thing's to some people! As for the torture part, I can't do anything much, I guess. But I'll have to see that it doesn't affect my mood. Need to create a 'don't care' attitude towards rk, The Manufacturing defect!

Hope next week will be a good one for me. Will the dreamsparkyatra and rose distributions help? I want them to! I want to have a happy week. I want my plans to work!

P.S: T's fun to listen to people taunt and get taunted!